Almost forget

Almost forget I have a blog..
It has been so longggg...now I am back.. Miss those times, those moments...
Been in Venture for almost 3 months +.. I like this place, the job is ok (not that tough yet).. I like my new colleagues, they are so amazing..They laughed as loud as me. N there is no such thing as politics here. We just love to chat wen we have time. This can be the best thing in a company.. We talked bt problems we faced, we talked bout frenz around us, talked bout relationship issues - just like those juicy gossips. sometimes I feel i just need to push myself more.. So i can see myself with better acheivement rte..
N there is another thing... I almost forget how I used to be so happy with this guy in my life..till today wen i read back all those blogs I used to write. He used to be someone so important. Was so passionate in love. Those moments are the best.. Nothing can ever replace it I guess..
Whenever I listened to love songs, reminds me of him. Someone that is so loyal and honest to me.. I can bet my whole life that he will never lie to me.. Never cheat on me.. What else can I ask for more? Love is really really beautiful if you appreciate it. So I wish I wont make any mistake that will lead me into losing him... Always remind myself, it is hard to find someone that truly loves u, so appreciate him... I did..And I am sometimes proud of myself too..
Life is too short for us to put love in such a fragile situation,right? Ask urself, if tomoro is ur last day of life, wen the buzzer of life rings, what will be the thing that u wanted to do the most?

Life in Venture....

Life is Venture, sometimes can be very fun and enjoying. But sometimes I hate it as well, when people start to make u look like you are still in secondary school.
Rules about this and that. Really makes me feel so uncomfortable sometimes.

When people leave..

When some of your colleagues start to resign n leave the office, some will feel very insecured and asking themselves if staying is worthful anymore, or the grass outside is actually greener? or memang green?
Why people leave? for better pay? career enhancement? lol....
I guess nobody will feel satisfied with what they have now..
If only human can be very moderate, guess this world wont have any rich guys..
Can an engineer be rich? Once someone told me that, in this world engineer cant be rich, cause we are so under paid...I agree so...
Some left cause they felt they have no interest in their job anymore.
Someone also told me before, to generate interest, you always need to know bout that thing in depth. For me, money is not everything, but money is something.
The more money you have, the more you spend...
So it is not about how much u earn, but it is how much u can save,rte?
But everyone will desire for better pay..me toooo......................
:P cause, everyone keeps on improving..aight....

Whats your dream?

We wake up everyday and realised its time to go shower and get ready for work.
At work, we spend time doing work, talking to colleagues, discussing bout work and facebooking too. But as time passes by, we tend to forget bout the dreams that we used to have. Dreams that we used to tell ourself that no matter how hard I am gonna try to make it. But some of you will soon realised that, we are not even close to the dream we used to have cause we are busy earning money, dealing with life......So the dream will be then marked as "fairytale".....Do you wanna acheive your dream? or continue with the life you have now?

Good news turn into bad news....

Hate it..wen good news turn into bad news..
:( a lil bit sad and disappointed. but this is within my control. so why wanna be sad because of it rte? it is not the end of the world yet...lol...
Whenever I am down I will tell myself, no matter how hard, this is not the end of the world yet..
Be optimistic, cause I still have long way to go..
Again..Dun give up! + oil..I can do it!!!!!!

The moment....

N here i come again. Listening to Kenny G again. :) lol.. today i have a good news. feel happy bout it. Am very thankful and glad bout this.
Feel very lucky to have so many ppl around me that supported me after all these times wen i was worried, sad and blur. U guys showed me the direction and advices that made me stronger each day. dunno what to say. But I am lucky to have u guys around me..tq tq tq :)
now is already 1131 pm.
watched once a gangster today.. quite nice and hilarious cantonese movie. weekends watched altera futsal tournament. lol lotsa lengchais. but no one can beat CF's power shot.*dun perasan*.. Sunday stayed at home watched dramas and makan with sista...another day is coming. time passes by so fast. guess i grow older day by day. but the point is, i grow older with frens and family around me which makes me feel that life is happier with them around me no matter how hard is the road that Im gonna take in the future. Thanks..........so muchhh.............x1000..I might not be who I am today if I dun have support from u guys (frenss dat share my sadness and happiness) *wink*
I need to be on diet.. so need to be fit for Phuket soon. Phuket = bikini..:)
hehe..ciao goin to sleep..

Q & A

Whats your name? > Wan Yee
Age: still 22
Where are you from? > Penang ..since 1987..still in love with Penang.
Fav food > fried chicken, sushi, sashimi, steak, kimchi, korean bbq and etc.
Do u play sports? > I am not so into sports, but I know how to swim a little, badminton a little, tennis a little too, is jogging counted too?
How bout movies? > I love watching movie, but only nice movies cos it makes me relax while eating Cheezel and drinking Smashing strawberries.
What do you do when other gals stare at u? > Happy cos it is a sign of jealousy or envy..lol
What do you do when other gals dress nicer than u in a party? > errr..tough question, I will boost up my confidence and walk in front of her without looking at her..hahaha
What do you do when your bf stare at other gals? > "hey babe, can u wipe your saliva pls"...then a tight slap..hehe....
How do you feel when your bf starts keeping secrets? > I think he wont..He tells me everything.
What is the size of clothes you are wearing? > S!!!!!!!!! what do you think?
Where will be the place for your honeymoon? > Rome/ Paris definitely...Lets keep money babe. Or maybe Japan
What if your bf is involved in a scandal with a hot chick? > CHICK? wth..unacceptable. I will leave him.. I deserved someone loyal pls.
Who do you love the most? > err, my mom, dad, sis and Cf...love them the MOST.
How do u see urself in the next coming 5 years? > A modern, stylish and hot babe!!
Do u sing? > nahh I sing in my car or his, like crazy everyday after work. another way to release stress.
What r u doin now? > answering questions while relaxing..
Who do u miss the most now? > I miss my good fren Miss Sia who always chat with me..but she is dealing with bombs now..hahaha..good luck Miss Sia. other than that, I miss my old old frens..It has been so long I din see them. Guess all of us grow older n look older now. i shud said we look like a grown up now.

12.14pm...SUNDAY

I got a rose from him..cant remember when. but i found this pic in my laptop..so I post it up.
He was late that day because he went to so many places to look for flower cause it was on SUNDAY.. Shops close on SUNDAY normally.. the picture below was taken in Ipoh FuhSan dimsum..eat eat eat..one day trip in Ipoh. Pictures speak a thousand words..

12.07am..still awake.

Howdy..I am sitting on my bed staring at my laptop screen but my heart is not here anymore. hmm..guess wer is it. lol. i am missing him badly although i only stop seeing him for the past 3 hours. i am listening to Kenny G, The Moment. reminds me of those times i spent with him. he is a very supportive guy i should said. he is always there when i am disappointed and down. i should say i am so lucky to have such a supportive guy who is always there for me n also my good fren, Miss Sia, she is better than the best. n my other frens too, Thanks guys. u all make my life colourful. N Miss Sia dun kembang so much wen u read dis. Thanks for being so supportive almost all of the time. sometimes,i am kinda tired of being tough and strong by myself. but then i know i will always have them. But when im tired, Mr.CF will suggest of a place to go for vacation and have fun. Thats him. He only cares bout me n forget bout himself. bt here u are photos taken in Cameron Highlands> Have a nice weekend

Aishiteru...

Whenever the smooth wind blows,
I gently close my eyes,
Lying down on the grass,
Just to feel how it touches my face.

I look into your eyes,
Eyes filled with love,
Way you look at me,
makes my heart pounds even faster.

Do u know,
I know you feel it too,
The words of your heart is 'love'.
Hear it now,
See it now,

What is ur biggest achievement???

For some ppl what they want for their life is big house, big car, LV, Coach, $$ and etc. Life cant be so simple and easy to be satisfied for some people cause luxury has become part of their life.
So why material is so important nowadays? As for me, materials can mean lotsa things to me. For examples, who doesnt want a bungalow as their house, a BMW as their car? But material wont last forever. Love last forever. Love your parents and family. Love your wife and girlfriends. Cause this mean something more to them.. Definitely love means something big to someone who appreciates and need love. So look around you, dont be afraid to spread love. Dont judge them, cause if you judge people you wont have time to love them. For me, life is just a short journey. hmm i wanna say thanks to frens that came into my life and left footprints on it. I really really appreciate it. I might not be who I am if I have not met you! :)

A story of choices

Choices are always there. it is just you, the one who is making the decision. Lets say you have two choices of guys to be ur bf or maybe ur future husband which goes like this :
A : He is older than you, rich perhaps. Big car, owned a house and good career too. Everything that a gal ever wanted. Lets look at this guy from the other point of view. Lets dont only judge a book by its cover aight. He is older than you, so he thought he can eventually controls you and understand what is right for you. He lied to you and he said " it is all to protect you". So when a guy is rich, he has lotsa gal frens who wanted to hang out with him. So u have to bear with it too.
When you complain, he said you wre too childish or maybe sometimes he lied bout hanging out with his gal frens n changed the fact into "im hanging out with my guy frens". Simple. You just have to bear with it and be ready when he lies to you again. COs its all good for you that you do not knw the truth, so you wont get hurt. But still we will get hurt wen we find out the truth that you have been lying after all this while. Other than that he is ok, he brings you to all the good restaurants n find good food to share with you. But other than that its all bout lies. HE once told me, there is no such guy that wont lie........cos gals do not love to hear the truth sometimes.
ONE question : Can u live in a lie?
B: He is a guy about ur age.. Just started to work. But because of you he is willing to get anything for you. If the moon is reachable im sure he will get it for you too. He just started to work, so he will be struggling now, to earn more money, to buy a house and n car so that you n him will have a better future. But again.. materials r just temporary, they are just accessories. Lets look at the bigger picture of this guy. All he ever wanted is the honesty from you, nothing much. He taught me to be honest to the person that I love, cause it is all about building the trust between us. Although i failed afew times, but each time wen I failed, I felt bad cause he really trusted me. So I told myself to try harder so I wont fail again. N he has tried everything to make sure that you can trust him, not even a single thing to make you feel uneasy or worried. You feel comfortable and safe. I guess this is what every normal gal ever wanted in their whole life. N he is always there to protect you and to comfort you when you are down. I was curious, does this guy ever existed in this world? Yes there is one. N am so lucky that I have found him. Thanks B (*wink*)

Hows your day, honey?

Today is Friday again. As usual, I am already in my holiday mood. Plus monday is a replacement hol. I am freaking happy and excited cause Im goin to CamerOn this weekend.Its gonna be a tour there.So Howt... Can't wait to relax there. Can't wait to have fun there. Can't wait to take more photos there. Can't wait to eat strawberries.... So many "Can't Wait"..This is gonna be fun. I have never been to Cameron Highlands *its embarassing to say this out*..

Mood => Happy plus excited..

.....Thursday 10.13am

At sitting in my cube, browsing internet while listening to songs.. ahh nice..so relaxing. :) Just had my breakfast at the cafeteria >> 2 kuih for today and a milo ais. This weekend gonna be a long weekend. N we r planning for a short vacation.
mmm..nice nice..Maybe to Genting. But will it be packed? Hopefully it wont..
Im listening to Korean songs again. Whenever I listen to them I feel so relaxing. As if Im lying down at the beach, sunbathing in my bikini(haha too fat for a bikini).dun care > ahh so damn howt..I will buy myself a house by the beach once I earn big bucks.can jog at the beach in the morning, walk my dog at the beach in the evening.oo,outstanding.hopefully the day will come..Lol.
I stop going to gym recently, cos cos cos > toot... Will start back next week. Cause dun feel comfortable when I dun sweat.. Was looking at my pictures on facebook. I used to be so small and so innocent. Small kids are really so harmless. No worries and only happiness.

Sunday ~ 12:11 am

Cant imagine its already Sunday now. Time passes by so damn fastttt. How I wish the time could just stop now so dat I can waste my time lying down on my bed and dreammm...haha whenever you think that you are too tired with life, think of how other people that have suffered more than you that still havent give up yet. Then you will learn to appreciate every minute that you have now. Remember we only grow stronger each day.

Today is a stay-at-home day. The whole weekdays Im always not around, so finally today I got myself a stay-at-home day. Its nice, but the day seems to go too fast compared to normal working day. Funny huh. When you are working, you keep track on the time, hoping that the day goes faster when you have less work or when you r super sleepy. hmm, evening spent with a gal-fren (SC) eating mamak's mee goreng near my place. According to her she wanted to eat this so much.. Amazingly, its really nice. :) ooooo..spicy!!..N i love it..its opposite the Esso petrol station at my house. cool cool. din know about this mee goreng.
So for the rest of my day I watched 7 episodes of drama in my room. Lol nice.. I love spending my time watching dramas without having to stop it. I just love it.
This drama is about how this wife controls her husband's life. She calls her almost all the time just to check on him.. really funny. looks like me, but not really me.cant stop laughing. so other than this, I was sms-ing HIM almost all of the time. N I will get to see him tomoro!! EXCITED u knoww. Will I still be this excited for the coming yearsss if Im still with him? Lol we will find out k. Just follow the flow:)
I love the rain.. Whenever it rains, I love the wind that touches my hair..Normally when it rains, I will stand at the balcony in my house, and feel the wind. Nice Nice.
Cant wait to see HIM.. Aishiteru! I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone. ~Javan ~

Its Flyday ..... ^.^

EveryBody loves Friday! I had lunch at Queensbay again today. 3days in a row, I went Qb for LUNCH...But today is a very relaxing day. After Mcd,we went Borders. Sat down and read magazines. So relaxing. Mcd > only Nuggets..Now back to work. countdown: another 3 hours to go!!!
Was really bored, so went and grab Kim Hyun Joong's pic. lol,He is so so so so cuteeee...
Hw can a guy be so handsome??? Dun be crazy! back to work pls.. <15:25>

I dun want this fat tummy!

Tummy is so big after lunch.. Had black paper chicken at Secret Recipe. nice lunch,nice weather.so full.
Haha..No dinner for tonite pleaseee.. Gambatte ne!
Tea break - one piece of kuih....
Dinner - NO dinner for todayyyyy!!!
:) yea wanyee u can do it! <13.53>
<10:53pm> just showered after a long day..washed my hair de, so i dun have to wash it early in da morning tomoro. I dun wanna wake up so early rushing to wash my hair and it needs longer time to dry it as well...But I love my hair!!
Paranormal activities-what the hell..i dunno what kind of ghost movie is this. Wasted my half an hour watching the actor & actress talking to themselves in the house..
Venue:only in the house, staircase, toilet, bedroom, kitchen & & & (cant think of others liao) haha..stopped halfway!
Hows work today? : Work is fine. In the morning,I got bihun from him. lol. N I skipped dinner today - good news ahaks.
I dun understand why I always have so many things on my mind. These "things" are always danggling around in my brain. Maybe I just like to think. I dunno how to categorize dem as well.
As always, I tried not to on my laptop after work, but still the temptation to blog is too strong. dats why Im blogging now! haha.
The only thing that occupies my brain the most now is > HIM...its always about HIM HIM HIM!
lol....People around me must be thinking that I have gone insane this time. They will say "Is this just your another new crush thats why U r so crazy over him?". But I will tell them "nope...u wont knw how I feel". This is so different from what I have been thru previously.
Oh ya there is this nice korean song by Kim Hyun Joong - Fairytale..Nice although I dunno what it means. But from the video clip I knw it means something romantic & sad. Hair still wet duh.. Going to sleep soon cos another routine is coming up as the sun rises!
Hey guys, WHat can we do to make our life colourful? Is money the only thing? With money we can go on vacation. But without money, you cant go anywer. U will be stucked in Msia! haha..no offence, Genting Highland is not bad la,ok.Without $$ you maybe can still go to our neighbourhood country aka hatyai (guys' fav place)
ahem..SO,no.1) earn as much as you can. 2) make sure your loved one is always with you! 3) rest when its needed. 4) dun forget to smile...especially to those handsome guys. 5) sleep more.. 6) Give ur best in whatever you r doing now, so no regrets in the future.
Think I will stop here.. zzzz..c ya again here. Minasan, Oyasuminasai (goodnitez)
<11:15pm>

Dont u know that it takes more?

Dont get shocked by the title ok.. Its from the song "It takes more - Jordin Spark". oh man, i love this song so much...am listening to this song now( you think im just so easy that u can come in n out from my life..lalalala). I knw this is so wrong to blog in the office, but my goodness i just need a break.
Question : How does it feels like when you dont have any confidence in guys anymore?


I wish I can trust and believe in them again. But the higher the expectation the bigger the disappoinment that u r gonna face. So i learn to play safe. I learn to take it easy. But trust ME no matter how hard you try to make it easy you will still get hurt when you realised that after all those timez that you trusted them, there were actually lying, cheating, playing with you.. lol..this is what I got after believing in them! I know this kind of guys. But no offence guys, Im just trying to tell u how it feels wen gals caught u cheating on them. We kinda have this accurate sixth sense. How I wish I can trust them again. So guys, can u pls try not to lie to your loved one? they can sense it.. really. they know it when you are lying.
N yea I trusted dis guy now. He is different, I know. I dun have to play the guessing game with him cause guessing game isnt fun at all. I promised him dat I wont lie and cheat on him cause I dun like the feelings being cheated by your loved one. Thanks for being there for me when I was already out of love.

Tuesday, 9:14pm

I created myself a new blog today in office. This is for public view. Yay at last.. Im not really good at blogging, but I love to blog cause I can jot down every single thing here cause I knw one day when Im old, I would love to read all this.
I just came home. Half an hour ago I guessed. Let me start with what I have done today.
Morning reached office at 845. Everything seems to be so routine everyday. Wake up at the same time, driving at the same road, sometimes saying the same thing over n over again as well. But the thing that keeps me moving on, to do all this, is a guy. Gals always do this when they are in love. So if your gf stops feeling eager to see you anymore, guess she already stop loving you. which proven to be quite true to me. Cause I dun do this to other guys dat Im not attracted to.haha.He is the one that makes me feel happy to go work, he is the one that makes me smile when I drive to work cause I knw I am gonna see him for breakfast, lunch, t-time and even dinner. I hope he wont get bored ya.

Someone used to say, we look like a college couple. How i wish I can be back to college n continue to study except for exam. But Work is actually better than exam. I can remember those days, me staying up till 4am to get my fyp done. what the hell! whole house so quiet. I wanted to sleep so much at dat moment. each time i think back, i feel like crying. At work, although sometimes you can be loaded with work, responsibilities, dateline n blablabla, but its better than u feel dat u will get a F for fyp if u dun get it done quickly..It is torturing, I remember!!! ahhh ..ok next..
Today there was a celebration at Altera cafe. lotsa yummy yummy cakes. Oh my god, I just love taking the food. But I knw I wont be able to finish them up..Hahha luckily we got some help frm B's colleagues. Whenever I see food, I just feel happy. I ald stop eating that much. Cause I wanna be fit fit! I wanna be slim. Cause when you are fit, you will gain confidence. :) Thats what I want.
lol. A day has just gone. so fast. Really, I think I will grow old very fast. But I dun care. Everything in this world is just temporary. Nothing last forever, right? I just wanted to go around the world now. But I need lotsa money for this. hehe... But money isnt everything. Be realistic, Money is just something. Oh yea, I asked my fren bout the star cruise trip. They said it s**ks. cos the food is bad. no one goes swimming cause u will feel like as if you r in the aquarium. cos everyone just walk around that place. so if u dun gamble, they said "better dun go"...so dun go!
Im sitting on my bed now. With my laptop on my bed too. Blogging n blogging.
Thinking of will the guy that loves you now..will still love you when you are fat or ugly? Will he still brings you out to see his frens wen you r fatty bom bom? I was staring at our pic on top of the bookshelf. Should I say that I was so lucky to have met him? haha we will never knw.
I agree with the term, do not judge a book by its cover. At 1st when I met him, I felt like he is really really handsome. haha.. But now.my sis said "dun think so".lol. After that i felt as if he is a playboy, cause handsome guys are normally world-best player!
But now, I just feel like he is the nicest guy(just feel like giving him all the awards in this world).Gosh..stop praising him!!hehehe.........so if u dun know the person, dun judge a book by its cover! if u r busy judging people, u wont have enough time to love them.
9:46pm